At last

I'm sitting here in the library of Georgia State University waiting for my next class to begin at 1300. A feeling has come over me, not one that is so over whelming but one that feels like it has been to long coming. I've always done well in school. In high school I made mostly A's with some B's sprinkled in from time to time and even though I was as bad a procrastinator then as I am now I always seemed to get my work done on time and receive good grades. That was before all of this technology was available to working class families.

Now I sit here a 27 y/o man in my Junior year of school looking around at all of these young faces who just sit leisurely around for whatever reason. Instead of working, mind you they do have books in front of them, they take the opportunity to sit and talk with one another about mindless and mind numbing subjects. I don't really fit in with them and my desire to do so is not there.

So now I must wonder whether that will hinder or help my process of school. I am on schedule to graduate next spring, nearly a year ahead of the typical 4 years required. After that it's on to 3 years of law school. So I can't imagine what I will be able to gain from sitting and mindlessly chatting with these aspiring youth, whom at this instance are grating my nerves. Who comes to the library to be disruptive when it's supposed to be a sanctuary for those who are trying to study and learn.

Oh for the good ol' days when someone would be patrolling around and shushing you for being to loud or making you leave for being a disturbance. I guess as they progress through and realize that life isn't all just having fun and socializing with one another they will straighten up and put their "ducks" in order.

Until then , I will keep my ear phones in and study in my own artificial peace.

Happy

are we ever truly happy.

it seems we are always trying to get to a point in our lives where we are happy?
but when we reach that point it seems more of a disappointment because it doesn't
do for us what we had imagined it would

is the thought of what could be more enticing than actually receiving the prize.
it's like with rich people, they have everything anybody could ever want and yet
they are the ones who complain the most about being unhappy and having problems.

Greece :: Oh ... Greece

I am seriously so sick of hearing about how Greek citizens feel budgets cuts are unfair to them. They placed themselves in this situation and now they just want a handout from the rest of the Eurozone. Well I'm sorry but I'm with the other Governments because they should not have to foot the bill for a country that over spent itself.

Money is not free. Especially when you are the reason for the problem. Take the consequences that come with your actions or be dumped from the Euro period. How well do will they fair if they were to rely on their own currency with their pitiful credit rating. Now they just want billions in handouts. I think not. It's not a lifetime. 10 years is not to hard to deal with.

It's pretty sickening that the people who are supposed to enforce our laws are the very one's breaking them.

I'm sure we have all seen an officer :

1. Driving while on their mobile phone
2. Not using a seat belt
3. Speeding 90mph in a 35mph zone
4. Even driving drunk

Of course we all know that they have been caught and convicted of other illicit activities. Normally their punishments aren't nearly as harsh as a civilians.

It's sad because a lot of officers now think of it as a just a job. If they don't start off with that mind set the atrocities that they incur get them there.

So many of them are so happy to be making a difference. What's upsetting is that they are needed at all. We are taught to believe that they are doing work that is important but more often that not they are seen as a nuisance by the gen pop b/c they aren't trusted.

Too many rights

I really hate when I watch these shows that are talking about prisons and the inmates and the inmates start going on and on about how their rights are being violated. This one guy who was placed in solitary confinement was complaining about how it was inhumane and a legal type of torture. This was coming from someone who was bragging about how he watched a District Attorney for two weeks to learn her habits when leaving Court sneaked up behind her and then slit her throat with a razor blade and ran off.

We are way to generous to these monsters allowing them to many freedoms and privileges. If you can sit there and proudly talk about how you nearly took the life of someone you should have nothing. You should be left to sleep on the floor and kept in a cell with little interaction with anyone but yourself. One hour of rec time a day is too good for them. He should be grateful just to have his life which is something his victim didn't have a choice in.

Ironically I am against the death penalty because I don't feel anyone has the right to take the life of another. On the same note one who does take the life of another should not be allowed any of the convinces of those who respect the life of their peers.

1 . of . them . days

life is beyond me. there are so many different paths and so few get the path they really want. so we spend our lives trying to get to the point where were believe we belong. then i think about where i am in life and it brings me to a low because a majority of the causes are beyond my control either something I was born with or something that is in the past.

this is definitely a day that i would be happy to spend in bed just drifting in and out of consciousness with the tv providing my lullaby

my own dose of irony

so how's this for an end of the day.

i just got off from work - 6:45am

get into car and start - 6:50am

turn off car and go back in - 7:00am


reason: cable snapped on the parking break. now she's stuck %.$.#.@

& i thought it was going to be a G00D year

w t f

everyone place their chin in their hand.

now think of something really fucked up that's happened to you lately

now just think w t f

it'll make you laugh

Porn .... Oh My

So I will be the first one to admit that I do take pleasure in watching the occasional naughty flick and it was such that boggled me as to what I saw. There is this kid who is of relative good looks nothing spectacular. On the little intro video to his site you see him doing various guys in various positions and so on so forth. On the same token he also has a "diary" of his daily activities. On one such clip he shows us a shirt that is bought for him by one of his "daddies". He then shows you the price tag of this shirt and it's a little over $200 which he then says oh what could I have done to deserve this. Of course right after this statement you see him being "handled" by an older gentleman. Near the end he makes a statement along the lines of "just another day in the life of a porn porker". It just hit me at that moment. We live in a society where people will do anything to make a dollar. Will lower themselves just so they can have a $200 dollar shirt for no more work than just lying on their back and letting someone violate them. I agree sex is fun and I really don't have anything against porn stars or their business. To see some kid that can be no older than 22 or 23 having sex with people just because he doesn't want to apply himself and work hard to make that green piece of paper most of us want so much. It sort of makes me yearn for the days when it was taboo and just talking about it made you dirty. Then on the other hand maybe he has the right idea. So many work so hard and strive for a piece of paper that runs the world and all he has to do is "have fun" to live a life many sacrifice so much to obtain. One can only imagine what is down the road for our society. It's on hyper drive since the 60's and does not seem to be slowing down.

Shame .. Shame : On Family Guy

I just saw on youtube that Family Guy sold out to Windows and has done some promotions for them. That really brings my opinion of the show down. It was the only one that really seemed like it wouldn't go commercial ... at least not for real.

December Playlist

So this is what I'm currently listening to for the most part.

1. All Along The Watchtower
2. Purple Haze                      
3. Fire                                  

1. Mercedes Benz           
   
2. Cry Baby                   
   
3. Piece of my Heart       
   
4. Ball & Chain               
   
5. Me and Bobby McGee  
   
6. Summertime                

1. Dream On

1. Another Brick in the Wall (Full)
2. Hey You                                  

1. Babe I'm Gonna Leave You

1. Son of A Preacher Man

1. Dream Weaver

1. I Can't Stand The Rain
   

death = tragic

so for the first time in my life i am suffering trhough the pain of having someone that i knew and was once close to die. i just found out not even a few hours ago that a hurting soul that i knew from days gone by has passed. she was a beautiful person who had alot that she was going through. unfortunately she just wasn't strong enough to deal with it all. my heart is breaking for her and her family. i know what a wonderful person there was underneath it all. she was so strong but just not strong enough to overcome it. she touched everyone that she came in contact with and that she extended the word friend to. all of our lives will be more empty without her in them.